I’m signed up to compete at Project 6ix at Element CrossFit Jan 20-21.

    Big deal- something I’ve done so many times.
    If I have the numbers correct, I think I’ve competed at Element alone thirteen times- most of them being individual.

    That was a long time ago. In fact, the last time I competed as an individual was the 2013 Regionals. I had to actually check the math….damn that was a long time ago.

    I felt like I had so much on the line that weekend. I had a new gym I was representing, I’d worked harder than ever before and earned a top ranking through The Open. As soon as I got to Regionals I was interviewed by the media crew. The whole thing was pretty surreal. At times it seemed like my identity was sort of inter-woven with CrossFit competition.

    I had some experiences that year that sort of killed part of the joy of competing for me.

    I had some shoulder issues to deal with in the months after the Regionals and had to pull out of a few big competitions I was planning to do- but the truth is I probably could have done them, I think I sort of fell out of love with competing.

    I did some team stuff, dabbled in Weightlifting competition, always did The Open and never put CrossFit aside. I love it way too much to do that. But I just needed to get away from competition. I had some other areas of life that needed some more attention too.

    So why now?

    I was up in Montreal this past weekend for an event and saw some guys I used to compete with out on the competition floor. They were killing it.

    And I kinda missed it… I haven’t really felt like that in a while.

    I’ve kept a pretty reasonable level of fitness, but this past summer I did let things slide a bit. For so many years I said no to things so I just decided to relax a little. Maybe a little golf over training. What’s a few beers going to hurt? Desert? Sure…

    I knew things would slide a little, and I was okay with that. I would pick things back up in September. But then all of the sudden it was December and I was still kind of in some of the same habits. I did an Inbody scan recently and the numbers had slid more than I was comfortable with. Nobody is impervious to these things… we are creatures of habit after all. When we are working toward things- we are motivated. When we relax- we back slide. I’m still in the gym nearly every day, but it’s the things outside the gym that add up.

    So my reasons for signing up for this competition are different now.

    It used to be aiming to win- nothing less.
    The competition floor is different these days. The field is deeper. There are stud athletes that are 10-15 years younger than me. I don’t go in there expecting to win- but I KNOW that working toward this will make me better.

    I’m not ready to compete right now. Not to the level I accept for myself. But I’ve got 5 weeks. I’ve also got Christmas parties, multiple Christmas Dinners, a vacation to Mexico… time to test the resolve.

    See you on the competition floor.

    “It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, who comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcoming; but who does actually strive to do the deeds; who knows great enthusiasms, the great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause; who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who neither know victory nor defeat.”

    -Theodore Roosevelt

Leave a reply

Cancel reply